Beginning

The past few months have been a pretty frustrating - but great, time for me. Great because I'm associated with people who believe and trust in me to a really huge degree. I also am given a large amount of freedom which is amazing. The frustrating part has been a lot of unanswered questions that I've had.

Questions like:

Who am I?
What am I good at?
What should I be doing?
What could I be doing?
How would I design my life if I could?
And so on....

The funny thing is it seems like when you have very few options there are very few doors to walk through and so the decision is easy.

To illustrate. We don't have cable TV service meaning we get nothing. Not nothing in the the sense of nothing good- literally nothing, no channels. We've done this on purpose because it gives us more time to do other things that we value more than watching TV.

However, when I go to someone's house, I usually enjoy watching TV. The problem is that if I have too many choices I get frustrated because I feel like I'm missing something. So I may find 8 different shows to watch and I don't know what to watch. It would almost be simpler if I had 10 channels to watch and thus far fewer choices, and thus less confusion.

So back to my point. I'm finding that my life is similar. I feel like I have SO many choices, so many doors that I could walk through that I don't know what to do - so I do nothing. And that's been the source of my frustration lately.

What to do? What to think about? What to read? What to listen to? And on and on.

Well I finally had a piece of clarity happen for me last week that was pretty huge. It answered a big piece of the puzzle that was missing in my "BE" puzzle.

And I'll get to the answer later...